Define your existence

I've always been interested in the unknown or the mystery of my existence. I have to question everything in my life even if there's no concrete answer to every query I have.

Today, a friend accompanied me to meet a mystic. She has been studying her craft practically all her life which is evident when we came to her place. Her house was ornately decorated with Chinese creatures and is richly colored with hues of red, orange, gold, green, etc. We were led to a serenity hut of some sort where I saw most of the books she has been reading and the instruments and paraphernalia she used for doing her craft: Charts, maps, pieces of papers, candles of different colors and shapes, stones, crystals, oddly shaped tools made mostly of some metal and gold, and papers folded in triangles hanging from a wooden figure on the table. I was scared- I'd be a hypocrite to say I wasn't intrigued and at the same time terrified of the idea of coming over there. But I told myself that I have questions that needed answers and if I can't acquire the answers logically, then I would search for the answers no matter how absurd the methods can get.

We sat at the weird looking wooden couch/chairs that were obviously carved from huge pieces of sturdy wood that were intentionally made too look shapeless. But despite the unique design of these chairs, they serve their purpose well. After chatting about the initial things I've seen with my friend, we were soon greeted by a woman of her late 30's wearing a long silk printed dress - not what I was expecting really. I've heard of her skills with mysticism, but she was never described to me physically. In fact I have to admit she was quite a remarkably beautiful woman. She asked my friend as to who will be the first one to have her whole being read and I automatically said the name of the brother of my friend out of nervousness. But she claimed that those were were new to the circle must always be the first one to be read. I sat down at the chair opposite hers with only a table between us and laid out the notorious cards of the future. She asked for my full name and my birthday and of the person I'm currently in a relationship with. I naturally said no one. She then asked me to pick out 13 cards using my left from the set of card that were laid out in front of me.

(lazy writer syndrome. lol)

To sum everything up she claims that my soulmate is dead.  I will practically suffer in terms of love because tracing my roots, my Grandfather and my Father were both womanizers. Most likely I am cursed because of all the bad relationships I've been in. I will never find true love and I will always cry for love (Something I won't deny). I've only loved two men in my life. One is my ex of 4 years and a recent man I've only known for less than a year. She read them well and she was right about one being a womanizer and another finding his soulmate. In terms of school, she was also right about me being bored with Communication Arts and having a passion for Marketing and Business.

Was I moved? I honestly was because of the semi-accurate readings she gave me. But nonetheless, I control my life. I still believe in finding my soulmate despite her claim that he is already dead.

Will I be coming back soon? Maybe if I'm desperate for answers in life I will. But we all know I have a knack for finding things out on my own.